2001-06-14 - 11:53 a.m.

My eyelids are glued to my feet and my head is weighed with thought. I have slept a mere 16 hours in the past 6 days. That is the equivalent to 2 normal days worth of sleep. I am delusional from sleep deprovation, but ironically strung from a sip of coffee I was so privledged to taste at the peak of my breaking point. That was at 7:45 this morning, standing in my kitchen. The heat poured in from the well-opened windows that were specifically placed on both walls for better ventilation. However, the heat peirced my newly-awoken skin, my thought of contentment had left, and uncomfortability set in as fast as that coffee revitalized the brain cells that were once so bogged. I was high on the bland taste of grounded beans, and yet, my head was lagging behind my caffinated nerves. I decided I am going to bed early tonight, but that is also what I said for the past 6 nights. I was up talking to Rachael last night, I was up partying the night before, My friends had come over the night before that, and the nights before that we spent driving to North Carolina. Its been hideous. I want to seclude myself from myself and frolic the earth with solitude in mind. Ill turn myself into a fairy. And its so weird that I say that because at one point, I thought they were cute, yes, but now Ive become a fairy person myself. They are so adorable, and lately Ive heard a few people refer to me as the cutest fairy, awwwwWWwww. Ive even heard Princess, in which, everyone wants to be a Princess. So thats my plan. My plan to perfection is turning into a fairy and harvesting the earth for its naturals. hmmmm, I need to get some rest.

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