2002-06-29 - 1:41 a.m.

Im telling you-- I am learning so much. I just figured out half my problem, and Im not sure anyone else will understand.... Tracey talked to me today about AJ. I didnt understand alot; why I take things the wrong way, how Ive become so analytical. She put things into perspective for me.... She was telling me that maybe when someone isnt where they want to be in life right now, they get overwhelmed and confused, and when a person feels like their pretty much on the right track, they are less likely for that confusion. And in that, confusion can lead to many distracting things, and make you want to deal with what is causing that confusion right away, rather than dealing with anything else. And another thing I learned is that, when I was growing up.. I learned how to give and recieve affection and emotion and Ive learned that that was the main way to tell if someone truely cares for you... well, some people didnt *learn* how to give the affection or to recieve it... they have their *own* way of telling you,... you just have to learn to recognize it, and cherish it when its there so that your not left wondering if something may be wrong (and your partner should do the same,... recognize the ways of showing affection). Its all about re-teaching yourself, and learning that people are different...and not to change who you are, but how to get along, and communicate honestly without any false notions.

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