2006-07-14 - 10:53 a.m.

Sometimes life takes you to places that you never fathomed you'd go. It grabs you by the hand and pulls you into many different directions, sometimes at the same time. I wonder, if the path I've taken is the one I was supposed to choose. I realized something today while I was having a conversation with someone else. What I realized is that I think that I keep walls up by not allowing myself to care for one person too much. Of course this totally confuses me since I've been thinking about Megan quite a bit lately and feeling extremely emotional about everything that has happened between us. I love her,... I loved her... I will always love her, and I dont know HOW to deal with that in the present. It makes me think why everything between us went so arry back then.... before all the bullshit. But, I guess everything happens for a reason. I wouldve never imagined myself here a year ago. I still dont really know where Im going- and that makes me stressed... all I know is that I have to finish school and work in the meantime. Im sure Ill figure it out one day.

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